“Some journeys I never intended to sail.”
These next few weeks in my life I will be facing some very difficult days. But I believe with all my heart that the storms of my past that I have weathered have proven the strength of my sails. Those gale force winds have made me the “crazy brave and wicked strong” woman I am. The last few years I have sailed many a journey I would have never dreamed were mine to sail, but sail them I did. And just like all trials we face, I simply had no choice. The storms kept coming one after another. And I kept my bow pointed into the wind.
“The tempest kept raging.”
If you are anything like me, as each storm begins to calm down, I find myself looking towards the horizons. I can almost hear the call of the winds begging me to calm the next coming squall and save others from their tempest as well. But at this very moment, as I brace myself for the coming thunder, I am beginning to realize that maybe I have been reading my compass wrong? But like the sirens song, the call has been so tempting. Over and over I just want to jump into the captain’s seat, steer them to a safe harbor, and spare them the jagged rocks along the way. But does that really save them from life’s next storm? Just as a smooth sea would never a good sailor make, have they learned to navigate their own course amid the waves?
Maybe our true calling is to simply be their lighthouse.
When we face such flurries, perhaps the challenge becomes ours as we find the courage to stand still amid the fury and illuminate their course. A lighthouse doesn’t go out and rescue ships. It’s a pillar of light that shines like a beacon, slicing through the abyss. It allows others to throw off their bowlines, sail away from the safety of the harbor, and learn to hone their own skills.
When you and I stand as the lighthouse in someone else’s storm, our only job is to shine brightly on rock solid ground, reach out into the darkness, and lovingly guide them home.
It’s the hardest thing I have ever done. As I plead for your thoughts and prayers to be with me in the coming days, I am committed to stand on this firm foundation and keep shining on.
I am a lighthouse. Please help me keep my lamp lit.